Brilliant Sunshine

It's just me, thinking out loud

Hintay

Tahimik na nakapila
nagaantay sa fx
malamig ang hangin
kasabay ng pagambon
1,2,3
ang tagal naman…
Kelan kaya darating?
Nang makapahinga
ang katawang hapo
8 oras na trabaho
4 na oras na byahe
antay pa baka paparating na
4,5,6
kung nag-bus na lang sana ko
ang tagal, ayoko na
sabay alis sa pila
sa hintayan ng bus nagpunta
hala…tama ba?
1,2,3
muling nagbilang
lahat ng dumadaan ay puno
walang puwang
kahit ipagsiksikan pa
bakit ba kasi lumipat pa?
4,5,6
ilan pa kaya?
Nababasa na ko
mali ata ang pinili kong hintayin
bakit nga ba biglang umalis sa pila?
Umiihip ang malamig na hangin
kasabay ng ambon
tahimik na nakatayo
tahimik na nagaantay
nang biglang dumaan ka…
Susunod ba ko o hindi?
Tama bang sundan ka?
Pero hindi kita tatawagin
aantayin kong makita mo ko
sige isip pa kung ano ang gagawin
1,2,3
tumatakbo ang oras
baka naiwan mo na ko
pero malay ba natin…
Baka makahabol pa
sabay alis sa pila
ang bus nga ba talaga ang inaantay?
O ang pagasang lilingon ka at makita ako?
Nahuli ata ako…
Wala ka na…
Bakit pa kasi umalis sa mapayapang pila?
Ngayon kelangan ko tuloy makipagunahan at makipagsiksikan
‘di na kita nakita
malamang nakasakay ka na
dumating ang bus
sa wakas nakasakay din
siksikan pero kumasya naman
at matapos ang lahat
may swerte dn naman
bumaba ang natapatan ko
kaya komportableng nakaupo
para bang sadyang inilaan
matapos ang matagal na paghihintay.

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Goodbye?

Six months ago, I found a new job at a highly reputable company but little did I know that my gain is others lost. Two weeks after start date, we flew to Singapore for a month’s training. The training had to be done overseas ’cause the job will be transferred from Singapore to the Philippines and that means replacing the people there. I didn’t expect them to be kind and accomodating ’cause had it been me in their shoes, it would be really difficult to play nice. But I prayed, I kept the faith, I didn’t ask God to make them treat us nicely but to just be fair, ’cause it wasn’t us who asked the company to move the job here. But God is really God, the people there were all nice, accomodating even friendly. In a short span of time, i can say that we made friends with them. Aside from the countless knowledge transfer sessions, we also shared quite a few laughs and experiences. They shared with us a part of themselves as people as we also did the same. When they went here to continue with the transition, we even took them to a tour, they truly deserve no less than a warm welcome.

I'll miss you

Yesterday, they finally said goodbye to the company, they signed-off and sent us their goodbye letters that nearly made us cry. A part of me is guilty, I know that they built strong friendships in the workplace for years, it must really be hard to part ways with people whom you see everyday, who has been a part of your life for how many years already, had it been not for us they need not to say goodbye. But life goes on, for us that is to continue in maintaining and even upgrading the group’s reputation now that we are 100% responsible for it, for them to find another place where they can once agin start building their careers. I am hoping that as we all move on through life, we wouldn’t forget the happy memories, the challenges and the friendship. I am really hoping to see them again and maintain being friends with them. After all, they made my first taste of working abroad and working with different nationalities a very enjoyable experience.

To all of you, you may not read this but I am really deeply thankful. How I wish it’s possible for us to really work together. Again, thank you and the best of luck on all your future endeavors. Have a happy life 🙂

Dear Lord, thank you for giving us the chance to work with each other and get to know each other. I know that it was hard for them to leave their jobs and the people who are already like family to them but we are putting our trust in you that you’ll guide us. Help them find their new paths and help us in successfully continuing whatever they started. Thank you Lord for all the opportunities. Amen.

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Hang-on and managed to graduate despite nearly getting kicked-out during his academic stay award

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This speech was delivered by a La Sallian engineer in one of the graduation ceremonies at the UP College of Engineering.

Ngayong araw na ito, sa ating pagtatapos, mayroon akong dalang Transcript of Record. Ang estudyanteng may-ari ng transcript na ito ay nag-aral sa De La Salle University. Sa unibersidad na ito, kapag ikaw ay isang undergraduate, may ID number ka na nagsisimula sa “94” at pataas, kung lumipas ang isang buong school year at umabot ka sa 15 units na bagsak, masisipa ka sa paaralan.

Ang transcript na hawak ko ay mayroong 27 units ng bagsak. 12 sa mga ito ay tinamo ng estudyante sa iisang schoolyear lang. Ang isang subject ay kadalasang may bigat na 3 units. Kung iisiping mabuti, isang subject na bagsak na lang ay pwede na masipa ang estudyanteng may-ari ng transcript na ito. 

Ang speech na ito ay hindi ko ginawa para i-acknowledge ang paghihirap ng ating mga magulang sa pagpapaaral satin. Hindi ko din ito ginawa para maghayag ng political statement, o kumbinsihin kayo na huwag umalis sa bansa at tulungan itong makaahon. Ang speech na ito ay para sa mga normal na estudyante na kagaya ng may may-ari ng transcript na hawak ko, dahil madalas, wala talagang pakialam ang unibersidad sa mga achievements nila. May mga awards na gaya ng “Summa Cum Laude”, “Best Thesis Award” at “Leadership Award.” Pero ni minsan, hindi pa ako nakakakita ng unibersidad na nagbigay ng “Hang-on and managed to graduate despite nearly getting kicked-out during his academic stay” award.  

Maaaring isang malaking kagaguhan ang konseptong ito para sa karamihan. Bakit mo pararangalan ang isang estudyanteng bulakbol, bobo, tamad o iresponsable? Hindi ba dapat isuka ito ng unibersidad? Ito yung mga tipo ng estudyanteng walang ia-asenso sa buhay, hindi ba?  

Ayun. Natumbok niyo.Iyun na nga ang dahilan.  

Madalas, pag ang isang estudyante ay may pangit na marka sa paaralan, lalong lalo na sa kolehiyo, nakakapanghina ito ng loob. Nandiyan yung tatamarin ka mag-aral, nandyan yung iisipin mo “Ano pa kayang trabaho ang makukuha ko? Call center na naman o clerical? Ba’t kasi ang bobo ko. Kung matalino lang ako, sana, sa Procter and Gamble ako, o kung saang sikat na kumpanya.”  

Mas mahirap ang dinadaanan ng mga estudyanteng bumabagsak. Kahit na sabihin mong kasalanan nilang bumabagsak sila, hindi ninyo alam kung ano ang pakiramdam ng ganun. Madaling sabihin na “Kaya mo yan, mag-aral ka lang,” pero alam ba natin talaga ang sinasabi natin?  

Kapag ang isang estudyante ay bumabagsak sa unibersidad, nandiyan yung tatawanan niya lang yan. O di kaya naman, ipagmamalaki niya pang “TAKE 5 NA KO!!!” o “Pare, magpi-PhD na ako sa Anmath3/Calculus/etc.” Pero hindi alam ng mga isang Summa Cum Laude kung ano ang nasa isip ng isang normal na estudyante sa tuwing matutulog ito at alam niyang pag-gising niya, kailangan niya na namang ulitin ang isang subject na nakuha niya na sa susunod na term.  

Kahit kalian, hindi naging problema sa “Star Student” na sabihing “Nay, bagsak ako.” at hindi kailanman sumagi sa isip nila na “Paano kaya kung sa walang-pangalang kumpanya lang ako makapagtrabaho?” Dahil sigurado sila sa kinabukasan nila.  

Huwag na tayong maglokohan. Grades are everything. Kahit bali-baligtarin mo iyan, hindi magiging patas ang mga kumpanyang kumukuha ng fresh graduates para magtrabaho sa kanila. Minsan din naman, nadadaan sa palakasan, pero ganun pa din. Kung hindi ka academically good, wala kang patutunguhan. Kung hindi man yun, mas mahirap yung dadaanan mo para lang makaabot sa prestihiyosong posisyon.  

Kaya ngayong graduation, ang speech na ito ay inaaalay ko para sa mga estudyanteng lumagpak, muntik-muntikan nang masipa o yung sa lahat ng paraang pwede, ginawa na para lang makatapos. Gagawin kong patas ang mundo para sa inyo kahit isang araw lang. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin ng ibang tao, kesyo kasalanan mo man na pangit ang marka mo o muntik ka nang makick-out, saludo ako sa hindi mo pagtigil sa pag-aaral. Saludo ako na may lakas ka ng loob na harapin pa rin ang mundo kahit alam mong hindi ito magiging patas sa iyo. Saludo ako na kahit pangit ang transcript mo, taas noo ka pa rin ngayong graduation at proud na proud sa sarili mo. 

Ano ngayon ang mangyayari sa mga graduates pagkatapos nitong graduation? Ayoko nang puntahan yung pwedeng mangyayari sa mga Cum Laude. Baduy. Alam mo namang may patutunguhan ang buhay nila e. Pero dun sa mga lumagpak, ano ang meron?  

Maaring makakuha kayo ng mediocre na trabaho lang. Pwede ka rin swertehin, baka makapagtrabaho ka sa magandang kumpanya. Madami pang pwedeng mangyari. Huwag kayong mawalan ng pag-asa. Kung nung college, nagtiyaga kayo e ba’t titigilan niyo yung pagti-tiyaga ngayon?  

Pwede ring ganito: Mag-aral ka ulit. Ipakita mo sa kanila na kung sisipagin ka lang, malayo ang mararating mo. Subukan mong patunayan sa kanila na kapag pinilit mo, kaya mo ring abutin yung naabot nila. Na hindi ka bobo, kundi tinamad ka lang.  

Baka sabihin ninyo, drowing lang ako.  

I’ve been on both sides. Naranasan ko na ring lumagpak, at muntikan na din akong masipa. Naranasan ko na ang umulit ng 4 na beses sa iisang subject. Naranasan ko na ang masumbatan ng magulang, kapatid at kung sino-sino pang propesor na walang pakialam sa pakiramdam ng estuyante. Naranasan ko nang hindi makatulog ng maraming gabi sa pagiisip kung paano ko na naman sasabihin sa magulang ko na may bagsak na naman ako. Kaya alam ko ang pakiramdam ninyo.  

Akin ang transcript na ito.  

Pagkagraduate ko ng college, ano ang ginawa ko? Eto. Nagtrabaho muna ng konti, tapos aral ulit. Kuha ng Masteral sa kurso ko. Hindi para sa trabaho o kung ano man. Kundi para patunayan sa sarili ko na noong mga panahong bumabagsak ako, tinatamad lang ako.  

This is a rebellion. I raise my middle finger to every professor, over-achiever, naysayer and detractor THAT TOLD ME THAT I CAN’T MAKE IT. I raise my middle finger to every valedictory or graduation speech that only gratifies the university, those who were achievers in school or those who gratify the country when it’s supposed to be the graduate’s moment of glory. You are supposed to acknowledge EVERYONE. Even those who failed many times.  

Kaya sa inyong mga graduates na medyo hindi maganda ang marka, para sa inyo ito. Kung kinaya ko ito, kaya niyo rin to. Imposibleng hindi.

 It’s quite weird posting this, ’cause I must admit that at one point I was guilty judging others, those who belong at the lowest strata of the graduating class. But let me defend myself, even if I am guilty of judging them I am truly happy whenever I hear success stories about this type of students. Life isn’t really fair especially for them but I’m posting this as a wake up call not to make them feel that it’s ok not to study hard. This post is for every one, for those who are at the top of the class, don’t belittle those at the lowest strata. To those at the lowest strata, strive hard, we may not have equal opportunities but we all have opportunities.

“Lord, thank you for all the opportunites. May we learn to appreciate each and every opportunity that comes along our way and give us strength to go through life no matter how unfair it treats us.”

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GeunShin Saranghe

Hallyu doesn’t really rely on love teams, notice that most drama pairs don’t reunite after their first drama. But if there is one pair that I would really love to see together again on screen it’s You’re Beautiful’s Hwang Tae Kyung and Go Mi Nam/ Go Min Nyu played by Jang Geun Suk and Park Shin Hye.

You’re Beautiful is a really nice feel good romantic comedy series but it was made more beautiful because of the undeniable on screen chemistry between this two. I really got interested with this pair that I kept on googling for news about them and surprisingly, I discovered quite a lot. Before they starred for You’re Beautiful, they already worked together for a mini series when she was 15 and he was 18 (not sure of the age) but it was when they made a CF for Etude House that they became closer (also before You’re Beautiful). How can you not become closer, if you shared a passionate kiss even just for a CF? According to an interview, when Shin Hye first saw Geun Suk in the costume fitting for the CF, she was quite awkward, “’cause oppa was so handsome”. Couldn’t agree more with you, Shin Hye.

That’s not enough ’cause they’re closer than ever in their second CF, still for Etude House.

Since they’ve already worked for CFs, they are already friends when they work again for You’re Beautiful. I was so thrilled watching the BTS, ’cause they are really close and they are even flirting, seems that the chemistry continues even off screen. I am wishing to see more BTS but the imaginary bedroom scene is the best, Geun Suk was teasing Shin Hye that she likes him 🙂 🙂 🙂

I’ve also read from one blog post that there was a scene wherein he wasn’t really supposed to kiss Shin Hye but he kept on kissing her. Could it be? it’s for real?

I’m sure, I’m not the only one wishing for this to come true. Who knows, it could be that these two are wishing for it too 🙂

That wish isn’t really that far from reality, I guess, based on their interviews. Jang Geun Suk keeps on mentioning Park Shin Hye and even announced that his mother likes her. His mom even asked him to try it out with her and invite her to visit their house since they live in the same area but Shin Hye still haven’t paid them a visit. There are also rumors about a couple ring that these two has, I want to believe it but the pictures in the internet are not really showing that much to prove that such rumor is true. The radio prank call during Jang Geun Suk’s birtthday also tells how close these two must really be and based on a you tube video, Shin Hye’s expression when Geun suk called really says a lot, her eyes sparkled and her smile is quite different. Also, in You’re Beautiful’s after party, it was caught on video that Geun Suk licked the icing on Shin Hye’s finger, you wouldn’t do that to someone whom you’re not close with, right?

I really wish that these two will reunite in a movie or a series but so far after You’re Beautiful they only reunited for Garden 5 CF except for some hostings together.

 

These two really look good together, how I wish they’ll really end up with each other 🙂 To add, when Jang Geun Suk guested in Champagne, he did not pick Shin Hye ’cause according to him, he’s just looking for someone to date unlike his mom, who’s looking at the perspective of marriage, does that mean if it’s in the marriage perspective he’ll choose Shin Hye?

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96th post

21,700 hits, 96th post, 10 categories, 801 tags, 86 comments as of the second day of October. So far, this is my longest running blog, a year and four months. I know I should’ve done this as an anniversary post but my schedule was jampacked that time. I was on my way home when I thought of writing this. For the past few days, I spent some hours revisiting all my previous posts and editing some of the typographical errors. One of the weird things about me is that I don’t do final reading when I write something, a lesson that I should’ve learned long, long time ago. Even at work, I don’t do final reading of whatever report I have written. But in blog entries like this, I usually read my writings after a month at the shortest, that’s the only time I discover the flaws of my composition.

But it’s not the writing errors that surprised me but rather the discovery of what I once felt while I was writing those previous blog posts. It felt like the one who wrote it is a stranger to me. I didn’t realize how hurt or desperate I was with my former job.  I also didn’t realize that my Toasted Marshmallows entries are 90% about a “could have been”, it’s surprising to find out that I once felt that way. I also didn’t know that I almost wrote the entire 25 episodes of Boys Over Flower in my 10 part writing series. Lastly, I must also admit that I sound quite conceited for some or maybe most of my posts. I guess, that’s another thing about me, I tend to make myself believe that I’m better at this and that so as not to give permission to those people who’re trying to destroy my confidence, I’m not sure if it’s a good or bad thing, all I know is that such defense mechanism of mine works for me.

For my 96th post I would like to thank everyone who spent time reading my entries and most especially, to those who posted comments. I hope that this blog brings a positive aura, brilliance, sunshine. I am hoping to write more and better in the days, months and years to come.

Thank You, Kam-sa Hamnida, Terima Kasih, Toa chie, Domo Arigato, Merci, Gracias, Maraming Salamat.

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