Thank You Lord! Thy Will Be Done!

I have always believed that no one gets to achieve something by sheer luck. Last month, my efforts had somehow paid off. I received the good news that I was promoted. I believe that I have worked hard for it but aside from this God blessed me with a lot of opportunities to make myself worthy of the promotion. I won’t deny that I have complaints with my job, I still have some until now. I guess it’s normal, ’cause there is no such thing as a perfect job as they say. Behind those complaints, I was unaware of the blessing that is right in front of me.

 

First, I have the opportunity to learn at least most of the technical requirements ’cause I am my boss’ only choice since we are only two in the team. Also, early this year I was given the task to work on a project with a scope that overwhelmed me at first. There were times when it felt so stressful but the idea of quitting never crossed my mind, its my responsibility so I must do what I have to do.

For a while, it felt like there is no direction as to why I keep on doing these things, kept on increasing my job scope to the point of being involve with the processes of other countries, doing overtime work is almost normal, stress accumulates and I felt no appreciation at all. This promotion was such a surprise not because I was not hoping for it, I’ll be a hypocrite to tell you that but rather it surprising ’cause I felt quite rewarded after it was given to me.

I was not the only who received an upgrade, we are three to be exact. I am in no position to tell you the details about the other two but all I can say is, while some expectations were not meant a promotion is still something to be happy about, at least for me. A percentage increase may not be able to match what the others can offer but again a promotion is still a promotion. Thank you Lord! Thank you for this blessing despite my complaints and discontent. I am not sure what’s ahead but Thy will be done.

Happy and Proud

I just want to congratulate my brother for graduating college with honors and my sister who finished her third year in high school with honors and other awards.

I’m so happy for them and of course, proud.

To all the graduates out there, “Congratulations”!

Lessons on Love

Last Friday I met up with some friends, despite of my heavy backpack I headed to Glorietta to meet up with them. I usually meet up with some of them twice a month but there are a few whom I haven’t seen for a year already. We all had fun, the conversation was funny but full of sense… it’s really funny how love can make us all go crazy. Below were the lessons and memorable lines during one of our craziest conversations ever.

– “Malayo, malayo….malayo ng matupad” referring to our three could have been long distance relationships

– “Maybe you are just so ready to fall in love and it just happened that he’s the one available.”

– “Ok kami eh, as in ok na ok talaga kami” a week before an almost there relationship ended

– “Try to put yourself on his shoes? Would you agree?”

– “Hindi pa naman umabot sa  Bataan..Corregidor pa lang”

– “You’re right I deserve better than this.”

– “Feeling ko kasi he’s just not that into me”

– “Konting respeto man lang sana sa akin diba?”

– “We can’t see the sparkle in your eyes, they look gloomy when you mention his name.”

– “Don’t overthink, you’ll just create problems which doesn’t really exist in the first place.”

– “You know it, I know you know it…don’t mind what we’re saying, you know who makes you happy.”

– “Wag kang maawa? eh paano ka? saka sa tingin mo ba fair un na naaawa ka lang sa kanya?”

– “Sabay sabay tayong umarte, pare-parehas tayong walang pinatunguhan.” Three of us got involved with an almost long distance relationship at the same time. Unfortunately, all ended at the same time.

– “Iniisip mo yang ex mo, eh paano ako?”

– “Don’t settle for anything less.”

– “Kapag mahal mo kahit nagaaway kayo kapag nagkwento ka kinikilig ka pa rin.”

– “Hindi lahat nadadaan sa ganda.”

– “Kahit sabihin nyang huwag, wala naman kasi syang magagawa kasi nasa malayo sya.”

– “May darating din para sa atin, i-feel natin may darating.”

– “Ok ako sa part na, at least I know where I stand pero hindi ako ok sa lahat ng time and effort na nasayang.”

– “Hindi ka kasi makaka-meet ng taong talagang kasundo mo everyday eh.”

There were a lot of stories that night, none of them are totally happy but at least at the end we all agreed that, there is someone out there for us.

You said, I ask

You said I ask too many questions,

Am I not worth the answers?

You said it’s too risky,

Am I not worth the risk?

You said I’m special,

How come I don’t feel it?

You said I don’t deserve to get hurt,

But why do I feel pain?

You said let’s find a path where both of us can be happy,

But why am I not?

You said you’ll miss me,

But why does it feel like you’re not reaching out?

You said you’re coming back,

But when?

Will you really come back?

Now, don’t ask me why am I asking.

I just need some clarity.

I know I’m not asking for too much.

Just please don’t leave me hanging.

I love it, just the way you are

He looks at me like I’m the most beautiful girl he has ever seen, he captures my smiles whether I’m prepared or not, he compliments me every time, he reassures me and gives me the confidence. Sometimes I don’t want to believe him ’cause his words are too good to be true but he keeps on telling me that his praises are genuine, it sometimes feels like he’s singing “Just the way you are” for me. I often catch him staring at me, waiting for the perfect timing to immortalize me in pictures. He keeps on asking me things to get to know me more. I love the attention he’s giving me. I don’t know what is this. We’re friends, that’s for sure but despite of all the signs he’s not courting me. Maybe, I’m just assuming things but I must admit that I enjoy whatever it is. He’s not the one I use to imagine, he’s not as handsome as I could wish. He’s too opinionated at times, he even lacks warmth but he is kind hearted. He over analyzes things, which is quite funny ’cause I always thought that one of the reasons why I’m still single is because of the same offense, turns out there is someone more guilty than I am. I know he’s searching, but I think even if he already likes someone or might already be in love, he wouldn’t realize it, either because he’s not entertaining the thought or he’s just too clueless. That’s his downside, I think he needs someone to open up the world of vulnerability to human emotions for him. Am I ready to be that someone?

I enjoy whatever it is that exists right now but I don’t know the real score and besides we’re going to be miles apart soon but whatever it is, thanks to him for making me feel happy.