Brilliant Sunshine

It's just me, thinking out loud

I’m not missing you

on March 14, 2011

Oh, Oh
I’m not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don’t know what I was missing or why I ain’t listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that it’s over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

[Pre-Chorus:]
I made a promise never to settle
Why didn’t I keep it?
‘Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

[Chorus:]
(But) I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I’m not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I don’t even feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

It’s a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus x2]

No I can’t be with you
Cause I’m scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can’t keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love’s good when its right
And when it’s left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else’s life

[Chorus]

(But) I’m not missing you
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
(I’m not missing you)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
(I got life to do)
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
(I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh see the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin’ at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I’m not missing
I’m not missing you

I’m not missing
I’m not missing you(yeah, oooh)
I’m not missing you (oh baby)
I’m not missing you

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Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don’t know what I was missing or why I ain’t listen

This thing isn’t new to me, I’ve travelled this road before and I honestly don’t know what am I doing here again, seems like I never really learned my lesson. Well, it wasn’t the exact same thing, guess I only learned half of the lesson but I failed the other part so here I am again singing the same song.

Cause of my curiosity

You got me curious, why you do certain things, why you’re treating me that way and most importantly, what your next move will be. So I got here, because of my curiousity. So it’s true, curiosity killed the cat.

 I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me

I know that you wouldn’t call, it’s not your thing. I know you’ll somehow reach out and believe that you’re already exerting enough efforts but am I not worth more than that?

 You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I’m usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I don’t even feel the distance

The distance is literal but I don’t feel it, ’cause even before…your presence wasn’t really felt that much except on specific circumstances. Yes, despite of everything you might have had me, I want to hold on still, but you’re not giving me enough reasons to do so. So, instead of wasting my precious time with you, I’d rather go and spend it with those who are worthy of it.

It’s a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

 Yes, it feels like giving up, it feels like love is never for me. I must admit that sometimes I’m asking myself if someone had come into my life during the times i spent with you but failed to notice ’cause I was blinded by you. I want to give up, I’ve already tried a lot of times but it always turns out the same, so maybe love for me exists just to hurt me.

I can’t keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love’s good when its right
And when it’s left in your memory

I can’t just wait a lifetime for you, I don’t want to miss life before it’s gone. Maybe this is not really meant for us, so whatever it is that we have if there is any…let us just keep it in our memories.

I guess love will be nice for someone else’s life

Has always been a failure on this, maybe it’s time to accept that love only works for others.

I’M NOT MISSING YOU

Saying this for more than ten times is cheating, hoping to convince myself but I think I’m not also good at that one. There are some lessons in life that no matter how simple it is, it is still so hard to learn. I’ve decided to give up before, gradually accepting that love isn’t really for me but due to some twist of fate, I changed my mind. I even prayed to ask for it. Then, you came…making me believe that I still have a chance at this, that maybe this time my story will have a different ending. But I was wrong, ’cause it seems that my life’s story on this aspect comes in a template, it always turns out the same even if I do things differently, so I guess the fault is not with me but I’m not saying that it’s with you either, maybe love isn’t really for me. So thanks for every thing.. that’s it..I’m not missing you…forgive me Lord, I’m lying.

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2 responses to “I’m not missing you

  1. this piece is full of emotion..almost soul searching..a great piece of writing..Eliza Keating

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