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Take me to Piedra

on December 16, 2009

“By the river Piedra I sat down and wept. There is a legend that everything that falls into the waters of this river — leaves, insects, the feathers of birds — is transformed into the rocks that make the riverbed. If only I could tear out my heart and hurl it into the current, then my pain and longing would be over, and I could finally forget.” – Paulo Coelho, By the River Piedra

River Piedra

If the legends are true, take me to Piedra…let me take all the pains inside me and threw it away, let it be gone forever, make me forget it existed.

As days pass by, it grows worse, it keeps on getting more painful each day. An unhappy soul not knowing the purpose of her existence, what on earth am I here for?

Boredom is hell in disguise, waking up for the usual routines, tireless waiting, pointless pencil pushing, hungry for some purpose.

Where do I go from here? Do beginnings still exist? How much is the price that I shall pay for, just to have one?

Breaking point, here I am again, a familiar place yet I am sure this one is different. Where did I go wrong?

Fighting off destiny maybe that was my crime, I’ve had enough of the suffering now, please stop the punishment. Don’t you think the beatings not yet enough?

Could be I’m just looking for something to blame and destiny has always been a helpful friend to swallow it?

It’s dark, I cannot see, been praying for light for so long. What’s after gaining another distinction, when people out there can hardly notice.

Belittled, underestimated, was age really an issue? Please tell me, what shall I do to prove thy self? If you don’t want me, then why did you take me in?

Insulted could be the word at times and one shall never allow such, but they are in the capacity to further do things that could inflict pain in every possible way.

It was never said to be fair, only worth it, but weak as a human, I get tired, I am tired. Lessons, maybe I have enough for now, let me prove it that I’ve learned something, give me a chance.

It hurts so much, that even just a mere thought can cause me to shatter. I hid everything with a smile as I muster the courage to go on. But where is Piedra? Take me there, make me forget the everyday pain of travelling a path that I can’t make sense right now.

“Lord, I put my faith in you, help me for I am nothing but a weak human. Help me find the job that can bring me happiness, fulfillment and prosperity. Help me, O Lord, the desires of my heart are simple, and I know they are not selfish, I know you have plans for me, not to harm but to give me bright future. Be with me O Lord, when I’m at brink of losing hope, help me O Lord, guide me to the right path.”

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2 responses to “Take me to Piedra

  1. Sokoricky says:

    Nice blogpost, amazing looking website, added it to my favorites.

  2. niceeu says:

    “PERFECT” (one word to describe the whole of it)

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