It’s Christmas

It’s almost everybody’s favorite time of the year. The season for families and friends to gather together, share blessings, enjoy life and be thankful to our Savior, Jesus Christ.

To my regular readers, followers and even to those who just happen to come across my blog:

May you feel and share the warmth and joy of love this Christmas.

Thank you!

 

Rights and Feelings

There are times when we don’t really have the right to get hurt, but getting hurt and feeling the pain is not a matter of having the right to feel it, it isn’t about some sort of entitlement, ’cause you just feel it, you’re not in control. Given a choice, it would’ve been better to just feel things when you really have the right to feel it but it’s not like that, feelings just flow in your system whether you like it or not, it’s not a choice.

The problem with not having the right to feel something is that you can’t freely express it, you can’t just let it out, you can’t walk up to the person and slap their face ’cause as mentioned, you don’t have the right, you are not entitled. So I guess, that is one of the reasons for anonymous blogs, a venue to say things left unsaid, spill emotions which are suppressed regardless of who may read it, they don’t know you anyway.

Memories

It’s almost 6pm, there’s a beautiful sunset in the horizon, my heart melted.

I stepped out of the office, saw a guy wearing a light green colored polo, I sighed.

I passed by the giant Christmas tree, I can’t help it but smile.

I saw some pink roses, my face turned red.

I went inside the steak house, I can’t help but feel the longing.

I saw the pasta place by the window, I can’t help but be reminded.

I tried some sushi, the memories are still fresh.

The fake snow fell, my mind is now dizzy with flashbacks.

I looked up, the moon is beautiful tonight, my thoughts wandered.

I picked on the fruits at the top of the cheesecake, I can still feel the hole in my chest.

The plane took off just above me, my heart got broken for the nth time.

I know that the days to come will be the most difficult time for me.

Each and every thing around me reminds me of what has been.

But I need to stop recounting everything,

Stop the what ifs and the might have beens.

All I have to do is hope for the best on what will be.

Moments that make me think of resigning

I think of resigning when:

1. It’s 2AM, everybody is sleeping but I still can’t go home
2. After the above, my boss is still thinking that I haven’t done enough
3. The word “holiday” has left my dictionary
4. For the nth time, I can’t leave the office to go on a date even if it’s already 7:30 PM because there’s something urgent that needs to be done
5. When process improvement means additional 3 to 5 hours of work
6. Everytime they say “No Budget” for the necessaries
7. I can’t take advantage of airline seat sales because of my unpredictable schedule
8. I always miss dinner with friends ’cause I still have work to do
9. Everytime I hear that the same job earns thrice as much abroad
10. I have to ask permission from my boss if I can go on a date even if it’s a weekend
11. Everything has become boring ‘cause I’m not learning anymore
12. You realize that even if you eat fire to just get everything done, you are not getting a promotion ‘cause no one is retiring yet
13. My boss is a total bitch
14. I’ve become a stranger to my family, ’cause I’m always at the office
15. There’s a post in the bulletin board saying: “No Bonus this year!”

I (want to) resign!